again and again...

im sitting here in my flat and i have no motivation to do anything.

I missed university, cause it bores me. 

Sport is becoming even more and more less attraktiv to me. And my flat... don't want to tell when i did clean it up the last time...

whats that why i feel so down?!

Its horrible. I don't really want it to. It let me feel like a looser. It feels kind of strange to me.

I WANNA be Aktiv, i WANNA do something.. but, i couldn't its like im catched inside of me, more and more.

I have to think about how i could change that. it disturbes me, but i have the feeling that i can't do anything against it.